A couple of weeks ago we went to the beach for the day. If you don’t know Joel, he LOVES the water. It’s so hard to get him out once he’s in. He’ll yell and hit and push us when we try to get him out. Usually after some struggling, we can get him out. Luckily he usually stays close to the shore, but this time he was more gutsy.
My dad joined us this time for the trip and took joel further out with him. No problem with that until we got out of the water for some snacks and my dad never got back in. Joel was thinking hey, my dad let me go far so I can do it again. By the way, my mom and I are very short and not very good swimmers… we couldnt go as far as my dad did. And I have a huge fear of deep water. If my feet can’t touch the ground I panic.
For some reason, he didn’t go that far until we were trying to leave. I was tying to hold his hand and pull him in, and he’d resist and get further away. My feet couldn’t feel the sand and I was so nervous that he’d get way too far me. I could see him struggle and get scared when the waves would get too high and I saw him inhale water. But the more I tried to pull him in, the more he put up a fight.
There was a man right next to us who refused to help by the way! Ugh!!! Anyways, my mom came to help but she’s just as week and nervous as me. But slowly somehow we got him close to shore. There Joel decided to push me and yell at me and cause a scene. My dad finally showed up and showed Joel his laser tag card and he yell “yay!” And got out… that’s all it took.
Fast forward a couple of weeks to now, I am currently in Guatemala serving in an orphanage with an awesome group. We got together one night for an amazing bonfire worship. One of the songs that we sang was You Make Me Brave. I always loved this song but that night God used it for more than just a good song. I was getting all kinds of emotional throughout the night but while I was talking to a few people afterwards, I began to see the ways God makes me brave in situations like this that I didn’t really think about. I’m scared of deep water but I remained by Joel’s side because God gives me the bravery I need to be there for him in situations where I probably couldn’t do the same for myself or others.
As a result, Joel has an ear infection because of the all the water that got in. He also may not be going to the beach anytime soon. My poor baby…